Posts for Monday, June 16, 2008
Written on Monday June 16, 2008 at around 2 PM
So I have been writing and rewriting for the past few days and so I finally just decided to start over again and just write from beginning to end.
So it's been well over a week since I've posted and here's an update. Last week was pretty much a blur. Nothing spectacular happened and so that's probably why I don't remember it. Friday was B's last day of school. G and I stayed to watch him have Water Day and it was fun.
On my own I have figured out that I hate myself and that's why I get so mad at them, because I'm mad at myself. I have been doing it for so long that I don't know how to change it. Because of that I am short with them and it really gets me when they know what they are supposed to do (B) but yet don't do it then to get him to do anything you have to tell him 10 times. So either way it sucks but yet I can't deal with it.
Friday night was took them to a church that has a babysitting service once a month. It was nice because it was been I think since just before my surgery that we've had a sitter. We ended up going to a mall, getting bored, grabbing dinner and then decided to check out some cars. That night I test drove a Toyota Highlander Hybrid and wasn't impressed with it and the price was high for what it was. I told The Man that I wanted to get a sitter again Saturday just so we can look more. He wasn't too happy with it and finally said, "We are not going to look at cars." I said ok and we went out to eat philly cheesesteaks (which I'm not too much of a fan of anymore). After we ate there then he drove to a Honda dealership and we looked at a few CR-V's, I test drove one and I liked it but I won't but a Honda because it too is overpriced for what it is to me. I mean if gas prices weren't so high I don't think that it would cost as much as it does.
After spending a few hours there liking the CR-V (and if I bought one, which I'm not, I'd have to buy it new) we went over to the Subaru dealer and looked at the Tribeca and the Forester. After sitting in the Tribeca I knew that it just would not be a good fit. So we decided to test drive the Forester XT (turbo) and we both loved it. Like I said we are just looking because we don't need a new car right now but I wanted to get an idea for what I want when the time comes. I still want to test drive a Nissan Rogue but I probably will go with the Forester and I think when we get out of more debt that we are going to buy The Man a fun car, WRX STI. So basically the car I want goes for just under $30,000 and his car goes for $38,000. It's sad when his car which is smaller has 305-hp turbocharged and the Forester has 224-hp turbocharged. I told him that when he gets that car that it would be his to enjoy since it only comes in a manual transmission and I think that appeals to him. But until I sell my car, which there is nothing wrong with, and our goal is to either pay cash or finance a little bit. Our goal is to not go into more debt and you have no idea how badly I wanted that Forester but I stood my ground and so here I am not any further in debt.
We have been having a hard time lately. A lot has to do with the fact that he is working two jobs with no break and he never goes out with friends, it's not like we have any anyway. But it's just hard because we are around each other all the time, no breaks and no family and friends to hang out with. We are moving to Chicago but I'm getting nervous because here we are wanting to buy these cars and so we really have a need for these two cars while living in the city? We were talking about getting rid of both the Murano and Magnum and have no cars and now wanting to buy two really sweet cars. Who knows what to do.
We also went to church this past weekend and I'm really not liking it as much anymore and it's not just our church, it's churches in general. Everyone is a hypocrite and look down on you or think they are better than they are. There's this one hypocrite and we have run ins with and I really just want to knock her block off because of her hypocrisy, it's so stupid but it's still enough for me to see what churches are really like. It was also funny that one what I like to call "The Guards" came over to the couple sitting next to us and told them to not drink while Dr. Don was preaching because it disturbs him. Whatever! If I need a drink, damn it I'm taking a drink. Get over yourself Diva Don. I was at least nice and didn't talk about it in front of the kids.
So here it is Monday afternoon and I was hanging out with the kids thins morning, trying to teach B to read and doing a little art project with G, ate lunch and still haven't taken a shower. How bad is that? At least I was productive but just wasn't productive enough to get showered. I guess I should do that because I need some stool thickening agents since my Imodium and Metamucil aren't doing so much for me.
The Man is leaving for California tomorrow night and it sucks because I have to go in for a dye test on Wednesday to make sure that everything is healing correctly. I'm getting nervous because I'm hoping that it doesn't include a CT scan because that sucked horribly bad that last time I had one and this time I don't have The Man to drive me home. I then see my surgeon on July 2, so he can physically look at it and then I should be getting a surgery date at that time. We are also trying to schedule a family vacation in there too. We are going to drive up to Eugene, OR and basically take a week, or just over a week, and just drive up and stop in Sacramento, San Francisco, and maybe LA on the way back. Since The Man's into running, he saw that there is a really nice place in Eugene to go running so we thought we'd make a vacation out of it. It's getting a little harder to plan the vacation because the kids start VBS in July for a week, B has soccer camp for a month for all of July and then my surgery in August and then The Man has a race he's running the last Saturday of the month.
We are going to take a vacation so if that means B only goes for two weeks for soccer camp, well I'm sorry but he'll have to deal with that because this is going to be an awesome family vacation.
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