Posts for Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Written on Tuesday June 24, 2008 at around 4 PM
It's Tuesday again and here I am finally posting. So last week I had my colon X-ray at the Mayo Clinic in Scottsdale and found out that so far everything is going nicely. There is no leakage from the J-Pouch and that my second surgery is pretty much a shoe in, unless my surgeon sees something that's just totally wrong but I highly doubt that. So while we wait I have been becoming more and more active. On Saturday night The Man bought me a Wii FIT and I have been using it everyday. I love it and I'm probably going to do yoga with it in a few minutes just because my body feels so sore.
I also had my therapy appointment yesterday. It went ok, we just kind of chatted because it was just nice to get away from the family since we don't have any "friends". Things are possibly changing a little bit but I don't want to divulge too much because I think that it would be a cool thing to happen, so I'm not going to jinx it. The only other person that knows is my therapist and he's not talking.
We leave for The Man's 5/K run in a few days. It'll be nice to get out and away from the heat for a day. From what I understand it's going to be cold there in the morning. You see the race starts at 7 am and it's going to be 47 degrees, that's farking cold to me but then it's supposed to be around 80 something by the afternoon. It'll be nice and weird at the same time.
Today is just one of those days where you're focused but not. I had all these intentions for the day and I really didn't do any of them. My plan was to wake up at 6am, do my yoga fit, get showered and by then the kids should be up and dressed and ready for breakfast. I didn't get out of bed until 7:45am, didn't shower until almost 10am or so, pretty much just want to sleep. My body is pretty sore from working out on the Fit and I'm debating on just doing yoga still. I really want to take a bath but with having the ileostomy it makes it a little tricky. I use waterproof tape when I take my showers but I don't think that it would work while I take a long, hot bath. Plus I just changed the whole appliance last night just before bed. August, really October, can't come fast enough. Once the ileostomy is gone and the stitches have healed I can start taking baths again which will make me the happiest woman alive!
Today I was kind of screwing around on Myspace and finally changed my layout, I think it looks kind of cool. I don't normally go to that site but I was a little bored and my girlfriend sent me a message so I thought I would check it out. Not much has changed with people. I don't really share much in common with them anymore, I mean no one goes out of their way to talk to me when I try and talk to them. I mean The Man and I don't even have friends out here. We are kind of pissed off that the world right now because his stupid dad owes us money but now refuses to acknowledge it. The consensus from the family is that we don't need that money because we have enough to spare. Fuck you people, after all the help we've given you and you still have the nerve to ask for more.
Nope, it ain't happening anymore. We no longer are going to help out because it's unfair that we are expected to pay for everything and we are taken advantage of. Take for instance the Baby Sister, she hasn't known a hard day in her short existence, The Man offered to help her with expenses, after she asked for help, while she went to be by the old man's side after his heart attack. Never once has she offered to pay us back. We paid her $300, The FIL ticket was $300, that's $600 that could have been used on our family vacation but now we'll never see a dime of it. Ask me for money bitches and we'll see what happens. Then the oldest sister (the most selfish bitch I've had the non-pleasure of meeting) had the nerve to ask us for money to help pay for their mom's 60th party when the plan was to meet somewhere in the middle so the family could get together. And to top it off, she had the nerve to ask everyone to go in on a $99 outdoor table. WTF!?!?! You mean to tell me you can't afford that by yourself? Don't get me started on my side again.
I really am not liking people right now. My "Friends" aren't anywhere to be found. If I want to talk to them, I have to call them because they can't seem to find the time to call me. One of them always cancels, the other owes me money and the other well I just don't care. People in general need to stop being so selfish and start thinking of others. Don't tell me I need to because I have been and I'm tired of being the one to do all the work. You should do the work once in a while!
I know that my life may not hold anything in comparison to yours but mine is just as difficult as yours. The Man and I are mostly on the outs, non communication, the kids and I are butting heads badly, The Man and I can't even get a night away from the kids because family won't come out unless we pay for them too. Everything has taken a toll on this family, The Man works two jobs, luckily he's taking up drawing free hand again, I have nothing but the kids, not happy with that one. Our family always says, "Poor Second oldest girl, she has it so hard because she has no family around." Excuse me??!?!?!?! Did I hear you correctly? She has her dad a few hours drive and her in-laws down the road. Our family is at least 2,000 miles away and refuse to come out. Don't tell me she has it hard, get off the pedestal you have her on because she's no better than the rest of us. Jerks!
Ok so I'm to stop ranting about the dreaded family stuff now because they just make me mad thinking about them.
I just hope that The Man will be able to run in the race on Saturday.
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