Posts for Monday, October 20, 2008

Where I've been.

Written on Monday October 20, 2008 at around 2 PM

It has been quite a while since I have posted and the reason being is because B up until today has been going half days at school and now he is going full days.  Why you ask?  We had parent teacher conferences last week and The Man asked how we can help improve B and the teacher said he should come all day because in the afternoon the class size is cut in half and she can work with him more one on one.  Bear in mind that B doesn't need "extra" attention but she really is fond of him (get your mind out of the gutter) because he questions everything he is learning about.  He keeps her on her toes since he doesn't just take, "Because that's just the way it is" answer.  He is a very stubborn boy but a very cool one though.  His attitude had changed so much since he started kindergarten and everyday he's cooler and cooler.

We are working on his handwriting and math.  Everyday after school I make him read me a book then he can have some yogurt pretzels.  Bribing can be a good thing when it's used in a good way.  I get what I want and he gets what he wants.  Win win situation to me.  His teacher keeps saying that he's the most advanced student in her class and I love knowing that but we also will keep that to ourselves because I don't want him knowing that because he'll get a complex that he's smarter you know.

Friday I was cool mom and I took the kids to Chuck E. Cheese (B's first time ever).  I had a coupon for 100 tokens for $15 and I figured it was his last half day and it wasn't a weekend, why not.  Everyone already had lunch so all I bought were two drinks and the tokens.  We stayed there for almost three hours and the three of us played and had a great ol' time.  I wished I would have done that earlier because now I can't.  I guess I could take them after school but that would make for a very long day for him.  I'm sure I might do it once in a while because it was so much fun.  Since it wasn't crazy busy I could sit down and chat with my girlfriend and not have to worry about the kids.  B was playing racing video games and stuff, G was playing games that had tickets.  So then we all started playing games that had tickets.

We had so many play dates and birthday parties that this past weekend it felt good to sit at home on Saturday.  Sunday I wanted to go to church, grocery store and just chill at home but since my girlfriend decided to take the next step at out church (The Starting Point class or Class 100) I figured that I would support her and go with her to the four and a half hour class.  We won't go into the rest but I just hope that she changes her ways.

So here is it about 1:30pm, G is resting, B is at school still and I'm sitting on my nice cleaned patio working.  I couldn't ask for a better day except for my house to be turned 180 degrees so I could still be in the shade.  All in all it's good an things are slowly getting better.  I'm getting more active in our church by volunteering in the Children's Ministry, I'm slowly learning the bible by using the New Women's Devotional Bible and I'm trying to learn it in 60 days.  It's cool because you can choose how you want to learn the bible and I wasn't as lucky as most people I know to have grown up in a church setting so they had to learn the bible at an early age.  So I'm taking it upon myself to learn and to teach myself also how to pray.

That is the worst thing about being new to religion, at least to me.  We are in a neighborhood group and the only prayer I say out loud is the one The Man's mom taught me to use before we eat.  Well last week I had to pray out loud and to me the women in the group are judgmental and I really felt uncomfortable with the vibe I get each week from them.  Some are very fanatical and are the people that turn others off from organized religion.  The Man and I are debating if we are going to continue with our group or not.  I am trying to be a good Christian by not judging people because they will be judged later anyway, it's really hard to break old bad habits.  Bad habits that belong to me, short tempered and impatient with my daughter. 

I love her dearly but she's also driving me crazy because she won't stop talking, she refuses to listen and she aggravates her brother.  I'm also trying to be a better parent and with doing that I also am reading The Power of a Positive Mom: Revised Edition.  I have a lot of reading I'm doing at this point and I still don't have time for it all.  The life of a mom right?  Oh yeah, I also joined a really nice mom's group with my girlfriend and I think they are going to be a big help to me as well.  I'll update you with my mommy church group as I go.